TRY so hard
TO fit in with everyone around them;
BE a helpful human,
A guiding hand to the one’s who can’t find the
RAINBOW after they get soaked
IN their storm of fears.
SOMEONE’S happiness could be hindered by that one
CLOUD that dims their bright day.
EVERYTHING I ever desired,
YOU have got. But I no longer
WANT that. Being trampled upon
IS destructive to the mind, body, and soul. Written
ON my heart is “No visitors please.”
THE one who was here last left his name engraved, with no
OTHER sign of his presence. The memories haunt me, still in the
SIDE of my head. I care no more
OF this relationship game.
FEAR of losing more has taken over me.
IN my mind I know you are gone. People come
EVERY now and then to see how I am. I still see your
SHADOW in the brightly lit room, making my insides numb.
THERE is not a day that you don’t cross my mind. The snore
IS silent now and to my surprise, I miss that too.
LIGHT shines down on all your pictures that are sitting
IN every room. It seems crazy that just a couple days ago I was stuck to you like glue.
EVERY night before I go to sleep, I picture you sitting in your chair, knitting. A
TEAR rolls down my cheek. I tell myself that this is not the end;
A minute later I find myself up on my feet, flipping through the photos, your unique
SMILE that goes from eye to eye. Not only do I miss my grandma, but my dear friend.
IN your room, I sit on your bed, thinking now how weak your
DEATH makes me. Though I know
I should be strong, for you are in a better place now. I
KNOW are still with me, just a little further. You are happier
THERE and more at ease. All you ever got here was pain, especially in your last days. Even then you
STILL only smiled. I remember your smiling face greeting me when I came home from school. It
IS now that I realize that
LIFE is not what connected us. It was
THAT strong bond between us, you and I, communicating even without words. This
LINGERS even now after you are gone and I see you in my dreams knowing that you see me too;
FOR this is a bond that can never be broken. I know that you will be watching me, almost
A year from now, proud
WHILE I walk the stage towards my success, and I will look up at you and smile, knowing exactly what you would have said.